I hate performing

I had to play today in my Intro to Theatre class. Well, I didn't have to play, that's what I chose to do. I think I thoroughly embarassed myself.

Everyone else did really nifty stuff: they read poetry, either original or published; recited stories; talked about their life experiences; and danced. No one else played an instrument. I felt extremely out of place. And it sucked majorly. I didn't think I'd be so nervous. I hardly looked at the class itself, mostly at the music, but I think the Horn psyched me out. I had vibrato, for crying out loud! I never have vibrato when I'm nervous! I don't think I have ever played that badly. At one point, I flubbed some fingerings and had to stop for a second to regain my bearings. Yeah, I sucked. . .

But at least now it's over with. And I know that I am my own worst critic, so hopefully other people don't think it was quite as bad as I do.